Wednesday. 6 p.m. The ferry was crowded. Tired, sleeping, grumpy faces. No empty seats. Three people read a newspaper. Most others stared at their phones. An old lady stood holding on to her bags next to a young girl seated comfortably while reading One Day, probably for the fifth time. She loves Dexter. Four rows down, a couple of friends chat on and on, while a girl next to them periodically rolls her eyes. In the corridor, five boys debate the probable result of the next soccer game. Noise. Sleep. Rain. Grey. Her eyes capture all. Her body feels the despairing feeling hanging over the crowd. Her ears, begging for a break. Until, for a second, her scattering eyes fall on him. Seated on the second seat of the eight row. Eyes on his book. Earplugs on. Her breathing was gone. The announcement came on. The ferry is approaching the dock, please stay seated while the ferry stops and beware of the gap when exiting. In a matter of minutes, most people stood up. She stayed. Frozen up where she stood. Hardly managing to believe her eyes. Thousand of thoughts at the same time. Not one of them a good enough something to say to him. People pushed and pulled, approaching the doors. All sight of him lost. Desperation. Was this a good thing? Maybe so. Maybe they were never meant to meet again. Maybe the unresolved-ending was their meant to be ending. There he was. Standing up. Grabbing his backpack. More people raising from their seats. Push. Pull. Disappeared. Again. Dragging her feet motivated by the empty feeling of loss she moved towards the door. His head way up front, amongst the crowd, already on land. Unknowing. Unreachable. Gone.
She sat on her windowsill, starring blankly at the street, seeing nothing. Her heart pounding. Her hands sweating. Her head spinning.
Inside her was doubt. She could feel a cry build up. There was love still. But there was distance. There was the act of time and growing up. But mostly, there was love.
The door opened. He came in, stood on the doorway, door still opened, a blank face on. She stared at him, uttering no words and moving nothing but her watery eyes.
He closed the door. Walked towards her. Sat on the floor next to her. Held her hands in his, as tight and as lovingly as he ever did. His eyes traveled from their hands, up her arms, to her eyes. All four eyes teary.
No words were said. No movements were made. Only eyes shared the intimacy of the moment. She sailed through his tears, he swam through hers.
The sun went down. When they no longer could see each others eyes, his lips moved into a half-smile, his eyes sweet and tender, his hands still holding hers.
"Even with the tears, there's no where I'd rather be."
Inside her was doubt. She could feel a cry build up. There was love still. But there was distance. There was the act of time and growing up. But mostly, there was love.
The door opened. He came in, stood on the doorway, door still opened, a blank face on. She stared at him, uttering no words and moving nothing but her watery eyes.
He closed the door. Walked towards her. Sat on the floor next to her. Held her hands in his, as tight and as lovingly as he ever did. His eyes traveled from their hands, up her arms, to her eyes. All four eyes teary.
No words were said. No movements were made. Only eyes shared the intimacy of the moment. She sailed through his tears, he swam through hers.
The sun went down. When they no longer could see each others eyes, his lips moved into a half-smile, his eyes sweet and tender, his hands still holding hers.
"Even with the tears, there's no where I'd rather be."
